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The journey of a single woman, farming and living life without judgement.

Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year's Eve!

Hello everyone! Right now I'm enjoying some off time in Florida. Its nice here and been extremely relaxing. I've been getting lots of sleep but I think it's mostly because I've been fairly sick.

I'm missing my farm, but know soon enough that I'll be diving back into it wishing I had time to myself again. I am missing my morning walk to check on the animals as the sun comes up.  Soon enough!

New Years has always been my favorite holiday. There's something so refreshing, light, a new energy with people's excitement of starting new in the coming year.  Obvious I know, but it's what I like about it.  I hope people know though, that they can pick any day to make a fresh start, and it doesn't always have to be January 1st.

Like most people, I have an idea of what I'd like to focus on in 2013.  The most obvious having work be a little more controlled. Yes it's farming and things come up.  But I felt like I couldn't get ahead.  Time management will be key! And going home at a reasonable hour,  and making sure I get my two days off a week until Spring.  It was getting ridiculous!

And the same as everyone else - exercise, staying in better touch with people especially my family.  Practicing meditation, and making a home in NY.  These are all things that I know I did when I made the decision to move from MA and leave a whole life behind.  2012 was a year for finding self worth and self esteem. 2013 is too continue my practice of self worth and self esteem, and too also fine balance.

Here's our Christmas baby!  Happy New Year Everyone!!









Friday, December 28, 2012

Vacation

I'm officially on vacation.  Woo woo!  I actually started on Wednesday, with a frantic adventure of changing my flight, driving in the snow storm to NJ, barely making my flight, and landing in Georgia Wednesday night.  It gave me a whole extra day with my sister!

And though I'm away from work, I can't seem to really let go of it.  But it's fine.  I am A-OK managing from a distance, because I get to sleep in (sort of...) and just do what I want.  It's great!  And today we are heading to warm Florida! Woo woo! 70 degrees and sun!  Tomorrow they are calling for rain, but I'll survive.

Christmas was wonderful.  My mom and Dad came down to spend Christmas with me, it was the best present ever.  

Nothing to exciting to report in this blog, except that I'm on VACATIONNNN!!!
 

Monday, December 24, 2012

Merry Christmas Eve! (and Moi Cuisine Numero quatro)

Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!

I'm having a wonderful evening.  I got out of work early today, I had a great workout, laundry was completed (for the most part) and my parents are coming tomorrow for Christmas.  I'm really excited.  

Tonight I cooked up some pasta with Alfredo sauce, roasted broccoli with Parmesan cheese, and venison baked in the oven.  I'm so proud of this meal!  Delicious.  I may have ate all the venison steak...

During my evening, I've had a lot of time to think.  I am alone on Christmas Eve, but I'm not lonely.  It feels good!  Exactly one year ago, I was feeling pretty miserable.  On this Christmas Eve, I'm feeling pretty happy.  I went through a lot last year with boys and work.  And it makes me excited for the next year - what's going to come!?  I know it's not New Years, but it's as good as time as any to reflect.  

Here's my dinner tonight!  Yum!!


Saturday, December 22, 2012

Amazing Articllllleeeeeee

Just browsing through NPR and came across this sweet article!  I need to get some salt blocks... And I could get some extra cash :) 



 

Success

I think I'm just going to work weekends all the time, and not work during the week.  I can't believe how much work we got done today, and how much better I felt.  Granted, it seems like I always could have done more at work - I still have to get a grip on the reality of farming and how much time things actually take in the day.  

But today we moved 70 sheep to better shelter, created a space for the other 22 ewes undercover, bred a cow, got the cows acquainted to the squeeze chute (because they HATE it), researched about mites and lice in chickens, and did some treatment for mites/lice in the chicken coop.  Personally, I organized Christmas presents (which are definitely very late right now), cooked a nice dinner, and worked out.  Awesomely, successful day.

We also came in this morning to a beautiful calf that was born last night.  I've been waiting for this cow (Devon 71) to calve all week.  Actually for a month - she was so big we couldn't get her through the squeeze chute last month (unsqueezed)!  She's gorgeous.  And I am so happy she was born in the warmth of the barn.

Friday, December 21, 2012

TGIF

How Am I Trusting?

This week I'm trusting that I can get through this pile of work I'm in.  I'm not saying I'm drowning, but I have ssooo much work to try to get through.  And this past week I haven't really been able to get through it very well.  But I think the next couple days I'll be able to grasp something.  All my bosses are gone, and it's only Chatty and Peru.  So, I trust that I'll be able to get through it, especially before I go away on Thursday.

How Am I Grateful?

I am grateful for my cat.  He has spent his first week at the apartment and has adjusted amazingly well.  It's nice to have someone else around the house.  I know, he's just a cat.  But it's great.

How Am I Inspired?

I am inspired by the work that I do.  I know I have a ton of it, and every day something else gets added to the list.  I'm just learning so much and there's so much more to learn.  Not only with farming practices, but just management practices - creating systems, dealing with people.  This week I feel like it's going to take a long, long time.  And this week I wonder if I can do it.  My motivation is inspiring to me.  

 How Am I Practicing Faith?

How am I practicing my faith this week?  This week has been a little rough.  And for the first time being here I felt pretty stressed for most of it.  It wasn't the type of stress I felt back in MA - I'm not holding it in my stomach, I'm letting it go when I get home at night.  I  suppose that's how I'm practicing.  Letting go.


Thursday, December 20, 2012

A Little Lonely

I'm feeling a little lonely tonight.  Probably because my sista from another mista, the Monster Librarian, is going back to our old farm.  I miss Monster Librarian so very much we haven't seen each other since last June.  bbbooooo.

It's also Christmas time and everyone at work is going away.  I always work Christmas, and I kind of forget every year that I tend to feel a little lonely when I decide to be nice to everyone else and work over Christmas.  But my parents are coming down Christmas day and the day after, so I won't be alone!  (If the weather holds out.  PLEASE weather, HOLD OUT.)

Work is busy, managing people is difficult, and I'm so freakin' excited to leave next Thursday and spend a week with my sister!  We are going to Florida for New Years.  It can't get here fast enough.