Introduction to The Idea

I'm a single woman, who is a farmer.  I just moved to NY from MA, leaving a place that was total comfort job wise and relationship wise.  The decision was, well, easy.  You see, the last few months at my old life were difficult.  My heart was completely broken.  The place I loved and the people I loved seemed to be letting me down left and right.  No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't get it right.  And everyone around me just couldn't get it right either.  Don't get me wrong, I had, and still have, wonderful, close friends there.  But those few weren't enough to keep me happy.  And I knew that no matter how far away I went, those friendships wouldn't dissolve.  So I left.  

Now I'm the boss...woo woo!  The challenge that I wasn't getting at my old job as the livestock manager has been delivered to me as the herdsperson of beef cows, sheep, pigs, and laying hens.  Every day I'm learning something new, and LOVE going to work.  Yeah, 6 days a week, 12 hour days are tough.  And hopefully I'll be able to get two days off eventually.  But compared to where I was, I'd take this any day.  

So this blog is about me, being a farmer at a place where there are mostly men.  Me, learning how to live "wholeheartedly".  Me, building myself back up after, now realizing, a lifetime of not feeling worthy.  It's a little bit of everything, and hopefully you can relate to my journey.